Friday, April 28, 2006

The Good and the Bad 

Well lets start with the good news. I finally worked out how I can afford a new car YAY! I've been wanting to get a new one for a while now, I really really really really hate the car I have (sorry mum!) and although I can get a car loan (the house opens so many more loan doors) my budget just won't stretch far enough for a car payment. But the other day I was thinking about what I was going to do with the 'extra' check in June. (I get paid every two weeks, so twice a year I end up with 3 checks in a month, meaning I get more money than I spend that month), I was thinking maybe my pond I am working on, or new windows in teh attic or insulation or..... wait..... my extra check is about 650-700 (depneding on overtime), man, that's 6 months of car payments if I get the car I want (Chevy Aveo). And I get that check twice a year- bam, thats a years worth of payments. WOOT! So this weekend I will be car shopping :)

Now to the not so good news. I finally had my neurology apt. on Wednesday. He basically said that my exam did not show any abnormalities, but that he was concerned about the dizziness and the numbness in my hands and legs. So He's scheduled me for an MRI on Sunday. I'm just a little nervous.

Saturday, April 22, 2006


I think I have found a new sport. Living in Australia I grew up with heart pounding sports where every second could mean a change in the game. It's not like American football where they stop every 2 seconds making it all strategy. I like sports where you're adrenalin starts pumping along with the TV and you find yourself screaming at the screen and leaping in the air.
When I lived with Glenn I watched NFL, Wrestling, and when I started dating Jon I even watched Rugby. Of all those Rugby was the most intresting, but it wasn't blood boiling screaming joy. Watching swimming with Jon was exciting, but mainly because of his excitement.
This year I have been watching ice jockey, in particular the Buffaol Sabres. The intent at first was because they are Jon's team and he couldn't get the games in New Hampshire, so I watched and reported the score. As I watched and learned I started to get hooked. I started watching the games for myself. ANd now, I am watching the playoffs and realised, I really really really like this sport. Sure, it's not Aussie rules or cricket, but it's making my adrenalin run and my heart pound.
Yup, the Buffalo Sabres have a new fan.

Friday, April 21, 2006


I didn't honestly realise how much Hurricane Katrina impacted me. Sure after I was in New Orleans I was more sensitive to those who had endureed it, I gave as much time as I could to do what ever I could from home, but I thought that the feelings had faded. Well this morning on the way to work I was proven wrong.
This morning on the way to work I saw a small black kitten crawling under a fence and sniff around for food. Without thinking I started to slow the car and started reaching for the supplies to set out a food and water station. It wasn't until my hand encountered my text books that I realised that I wasn't IN New Orleans. The instinct was so strong to help the cat.
I drove on feeling sad, knowing that I have to find some way to continue helping.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

News from my world 

It's been a while since I blogged any "life" stuff so just to update those who read this crazy thing:

-I am going to be a TA (teachers Assistant) next semester for a Roman History class.
-I am building a pond in my backyard.... well after I clean out all the dead crap back there.
-I painted my mudroom blue and the spare bedroom green (no more pink!)
-The basement was going to be: the bottom third burgandy red, the top third like a terracotta. But there is too much red, so I am only going to finish the red behind the bar, the rest will all be terracotta.
-Jon and I are still together and I still hate the distance
-I am thinking of getting a newer car. (Thinking? No- really really really desperatly wanting- but finaces holding me back.) Thinking of saying screw finances I want a car.
-I got accepted into the history honors program, which means I have to write a thesis (eep!). My overall topic right now: The economic and social situaions in 18th C England that led to transportantion. In particular the severe poverty and harsh penal code fo even petty crimes.
-I think I want to teach Australian history when I am done. I will have to branch out and be able to teach some European history too, Australia is kind of small here in the states.
-I am still dizzy, although mainly now at night and in the AM or when I have just plain not had enough sleep. I go to the Neuro next week.


Why is it that a pen can produce so many different things from the one hand? I don't understand my writting. I mean, I will write something, a short story or my current "novel" attempt and it reads like all kinds of childish trash. Short choppy, like I am in a rush to get to the next point in the story without ever really getting to any point in the story. I know what I want this story to be about, I have the broad plotline down, but I can't seem to write ANYTHING about it. I have a few good discriptions, and some great mental images, but I can't seem to get them on paper.
And then I seem to write these GREAT sweeping saga's in my head, stuff that I can't wait to get down, and by the time i get to a pen, it's gone. And when I try and recreate it, it's a bunch of jumbeled crap that conveys nothing. I don't know how many fantastic scenes I have lost.
So I decided to take a page from the creative writing class i took in 12th Grade here in the US back in 96. I've taken out my old journal and just started writing random stuff. I carry it around with me, so that if I ever get this great sentance I can get it down right away. I wrote a handful of stuff and then I went back and read some of my old journal entries.
Not that I am trying to be immodest or anything, but there is some GOOD stuff there. I've got one great description of John that I have to work in somewhere, and then a dream sequence with a sentance in it that just lept off the page, and a death/abuse scene that was great- (where did I get that???). There is also a few other pieces that are not so good in themselves, but have a great base that maybe I can work with.
So what is it that I can write these powerful descriptions and sketches- or rather pictures of time- where you capture a feeling of a person or a scene- and I know they are good. The one I read last night made me want to cry, or comfort the person I was reading about, which I think it's great seeing as I wrote it. And yet, i can't seem to write a story longer than 2 pages. I know I write better when I am feeling depressed, so maybe the key is to tell my friends to be meaner to me. I don't know. But I know, I love to write.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I've been Tagged 


If you were to be the opposite sex for one day, what would you do?

Pee in the woods. Seriously- do you know how HARD it is for a woman to take a leak in the woods?

If you had to name the most difficult thing about being a teenager today, what would you say?

Pretty much the same as when I was a teenager I guess. Fitting in. Today it's harder because you have to have a cell phone and an IPod, at least all I had to worry about was if my fringe (bangs) would stand up straight.

If you had to name the most embarrassing moment of your life, when was it?

Oh this is easy. 5th Grade. Teacher had all of us do headstands, one child each day of the week. I developed early. I did not wear a brassier yet. I did a headstand. My tshirt flew over my head. Yes, I still blush.

If you had to name the most overrated actor in Hollywood, who would it be?

Hillary Duff. She plays the same charecture over and over and over. She only has one charecture. Drives me crazy.

If you had to name the one personality trait that you have tried the hardest to change in yourself, what would you say?

Hardest to change? My bossiness I think. Or maybe it's the jealousy thing.

If you could go back for one minute to the Garden of Eden and give Adam advice, what would you say?

Erm... procriate before she gets board?

If you were to name the best “I told you so” you ever got to deliver, what was it?

I usually try to NOT say it to be honest. Even if I am thinking it. I think the best most recent one was when my b/f was spouting off about hitler and him being a business man before he was "evil incarnate" and I was able to prove him wrong.

If you were Madonna, what would you do for your next publicity stunt?

Whew- simulate sex on stage? I mean really- you can't really top what she has already done.

If you could have a lifetime 50 percent discount in any single store at your local mall, which store would it be in?

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh.....I would have to say sears. Or JCPenney. No Sears is better.

If you could have one more pet, what kind would you get, and what would you name it?

A dog. Preferrably a mutt that I rescue out of a shelter. Or a Husky. Or a German Shepard. As for name, I dunno, the animal will tell me his name.

If you could have God perform one miracle today, what would you want it to be?

To let those I live to live in my brain for one day so that they can truly understand me, and for me to live in theres.

If you could spend next New Year’s Eve doing anything, what would you do, and with whom?

I would take Lyndall on a world trip, we would stop at every country for their countdown's.

If you were to set your country’s immigration policy, what would it be?

Unlimited access to those coming from war torn/persicuted regions. (We don't want another holocaust where people wanted to leave and couldn't). A temporary work permit for those in Mexico who want to do seasonal jobs, like orange picking or farming- they have to pay taxes and they have to leave at the end of the season.

If you were given the power to settle the issue of gays in the military, what policy would you set?

Deal with it. I mean seriously, just because someone likes people of the same sex doesn't mean they are any less worthy of serving the country.

If you could have one person you have lost touch with call you up tonight and invite you to dinner, who would you want it to be?

Wow. There are so many people. But I would have to say Richard Whitehouse.

If you could change one thing about your love life, what would it be?

He wouldn't live so damn far away, and his family wouldn't hate me.

If you could have prevented one book from ever having been written, which book would it be?

Constantines Sword.

If you have to name the best music album ever recorded, which would you select?

I don't know that there is a best EVER. I like a lot of stuff. I guess my best answer is George Michael's Older, because it has so much of how I feel.

If you could have one thing made out of pure gold, what would you choose?

Jewlery. LOL everything else seems superfluous.

If God were to whisper one thing in your ear, what would you like Him to say?

I make mistakes too.


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The Words of my bestest bud.
My Aunt's Blog

EDJ's Blog
The rabble of film reviews- cinemablend


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