Why is it that hurt sneaks up so quickly and suddenly? I can be fine and then suddenly the next moment tears threaten and I have to use all my willpower to fight them back. Anger follows quickly on it's heels- how can he do this to me? The girl he one wanted to elope with. I gave him the greatest sacrifice I could and he threw me to the curb like an old newspaper. And then the hurt comes back again, a full circle. I miss him. I want him to hold me, to understand or to try and understand how I feel. I should never have terminated the child. Never. I did it for him and now that anger combines with the hurt and makes me a very bitter person.
I guess the only good thing is that I have been working the anger off in the gym- I hope that i can shed the weight. ANd maybe I can work off the anger.
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posted by Legna @ 9:51 AM